Wow. I was so tired last night I fell asleep very quick and early. I was still up every hour or so, but not too much longer after I would wake up, I would fall back asleep instead of being up for hours and hours. Anxiety Much? I'm just like my Mother. When a problem arises just go to sleep. It'll still be there when you wake up, but for some reason its like you make it go away for a couple hours. My first appointment was meeting with the team of specialists all together. I had the hardest time trying to get out of bed because I was in a lot of pain and felt really nauseous. In general, mornings are really hard for me that's why I usually schedule my doctors appointments in the afternoon but for this clinic, I really didn't have a choice or much flexibility because it was imperative to stay on schedule. All together there were 14 or so different cases that the specialists had to get through. They are used to spending hours with a patient and they had about 25 minutes. My first appointment was with the team of specialists. Most of them were flown in from all different hospitals all over the country. My time with them was at 9:00 and I ended up being late. In order to stay on schedule, we made a different time to meet with them, and went on to the next Doctor. Following that, I saw a nutritionist, then a pain management specialist. I was one of two that got to have an hour with her. One of the first things she said was how little time we had to spend together. The others only got about 25 minutes with her so I thought I was lucky. Even that was such a short time because she told us that she is used to spending at least two or three hours with her patients. What an incredible experience it was in such a short time. I learned so many different things and she was so very kind. By the way she walked in, it seemed that she hadn't had it that easy herself. As much as I don't want anyone to suffer, typically, I guess I should say that in my experiences with Doctors, it makes them understand better and be able to give more personal suggestions versus what an article or a text book says to do. She was very humble and had so much to offer me. Continuing on with my day, it was my time to meet with the team of specialists. I found out a lot of new information and in the end, they asked me to come back for some further testing. I was awestruck at the compassion and modesty the Doctors upheld throughout the clinic. All they want to do is help. Now knowing that they want to help me and not use me as a Guinea pig, all of the uncertainty I had is gone and I am full of new knowledge. I am incredibly blessed in so many ways, and for all of these specialists coming together and asking me and only me to come back it isn't just the luck of the draw, it's Heaven sent. I have an incredible bond with my Heavenly Father and going through trials and tribulations, I have never questioned any part of my life here on earth. No matter what happens, I know that I have an eternal bond with my family, therefore I do not question when, why, what or how my life will be or how long I will have on this earth. There are sometimes when I feel that I would like to be home, home with Heavenly Father. But I know that I have a lot more work to do with my earthly life and a lot more life to live on this earth. Everyone struggles with something, but as long as you let Heavenly father and the Holy Ghost guide, as difficult as it is at times, I know that everything will be ok.
*-Ashley-*
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